The Reason for this blog

I have been thinking about starting to write a blog for a while now, but it took me a while to work out my inner conflict. You see, just like everyone else I believe that my voice is unique and will bring insight and wisdom to all those who read my words, but I also have deep feelings of self doubt. I didn't publish a blog for a long time because I was afraid. I was afraid of some objective things like that people would notice and mock my poor spelling and grammar but I was also afraid of somethings that cut a little deeper into my psyche. I have always fancied myself a funny and insightful guy but what if I was wrong? What if of all the people I showed this to no one ever came back for more of my delightful little quips? I didn't think I could take it. 

I have to be realistic though, probably no one ever WILL make this blog something they check every morning. Sure I have these nice little fantasies about some publisher reading this and giving me money to just tell stories about my life, but in all reality I know I am no Tucker Max or Christian Lander. I just should be content to write my thoughts down for myself and if someone reads it and benefits from it fine- but that is not the purpose. 

The purpose is to get my thoughts down in writing and to distract myself from law school. Getting your thoughts down in writing can really help you clear your head, which is something I really need from time to time. More and more lately I have found myself needing to write about something that is bugging me to move on to another task. I have never kept a diary (and a diary is certainly not what this will become) but I think that this blog could be an interesting experiment for me in self documentation. 

So why create this now? Well, I have gone into why I didn't do it sooner already in this post but the reason I did it boiled down to 3 of my friends: Chewy, Brewdog and Mach 1

Chewy is a girl who has been one of my best friends for a long time and she recently traveled to Ecuador. Instead of writing 1 e-mail every month and copying all her friends on it she created a blog to update all of us on her goings on across the world. This was actually very nice. Instead of having messages in my inbox which can get lost in the hustle and bustle I got to check in on her every now and again at my leisure. I am planning on studying abroad in Rome this summer (something I am very excited about) and I can use this as a tool to communicate with all my loved ones. 

Brewdog has been my best friend pretty much since we were sophomores in high school and is one of the bravest people I know. It's not that he would jump off a cliff without thinking twice or try to hit on a UFC fighter's girlfriend, but he doesn't seem to really care what anyone thinks of him. He is the most unique person that I know and he never really seeks anyone's approval. One day this winter I was telling him I was thinking about starting a blog and he said "you should just do it, man." We talked about it a little more and I said "Brewdog, you have a lot of unique views. Why don't you start a blog?" he responded " 'cuz I don't have the balls... but you do." This was a pretty big compliment to me at the time as I have never considered myself particularly brave. But this put me on the path to serious consideration of a blog.

Mach1 is probably more responsible than anyone else though. Mach1 has maintained a blog for a long time. He was a journalism major at Marquette for undergrad so he is a very good writer. I check it every now and again and I am really glad he writes it. Not only because I enjoy his writing but because I feel like I have gotten to know him so much better through his writing. Sure I have facebook and can know his favorite movies or books but in looking at his blog I get a deeper perspective. I know what he values, I know what he observes and I know his take on things much better than any of my other facebook friends. At this point I would say I know Mach1 a lot better than people I have known for years.

So that is what it is. At this point in my life I am confidant enough in the person I am that I am comfortable having people know me. I want people to understand me (if they chose to by reading my blog) because that should be the goal of any human relationship. Getting to know and understand our fellow human beings is a large part of what makes us an "evolved race." SO in a way I guess I am just doing my part for human evolution.